AloNe in thE DarK

I always find my self stuck in a dark hole. a deep, scary, n lonely dark hole.. there was nobody there. there's only me, n the dark creature that's waiting to eat me from the inside. i feel pain in my heart, as i can't find anybody to heal me. n i have been here for far too long..

One day, i find tht light shine through my sad face. like someone has bring the power of light, happines, n smiles, to the empty n lonely hole. i can smell them bringing the joy n fun far away from this crypt. i call them, ANGEL, as they the only one that can save me from the beast of the empty heart. it's been a while, that i can smile like this. to smile with reason that is sufficient. to smile, as it can kill the monster inside me. this ANGEL come in many form, some have dark robes, others with shining white robes. n seeing them, give energy, n hopes to me to escape from this very hole.

But the weird thing is, this ANGELS just stare at me from far-far away. they didn't want to get close with me, hearing my heartbeat, or exploring my weaken heart story. they just stare at me, far away, looking at me with a synyster smile, while the dark creature dragging my feet deeper to the endless black hole. i was frighten, i feel betrayed, n i cry. i cry like i never cried before as the image of the ANGELS starting to disappear....

As i dragged by the hideous creature to the abyss, i become enraged.. my heart was exploding, overflowing with fire from hell. i feel betrayed, i feel really betrayed! i can feel my head heating up, as well as my body n my raging heart. i scream as loud as i can, even the dark creature left me, alone in the empty hollow. now, i am alone, with a vengeful heart. i swear to kill, to tear apart any ANGEL that i see. n eat their warm heart to satisfy the devil inside me. i becoming more like the dark creature itself, as my body start to change, hideous face, red eyes, sharp claws, ...but,even so,i know the other side of me, really want somebody to pull me up from the empty,lonely hollow...

Letih

Beberapa hari ni ak rs penat jer..i dunno why..n all my body hurt like hell.my face hurt(thx to my old enemies), my back hurt, my stomach feel like it wanna explode, n i feel like a walking zombie. tp skrg da ok kot, dgn ad nye member2 kat skeliling ak nih..keeping me all healthy n cheerful.

Oh ya, i just got my guitar back from tht motherfucker. he just tell tht he was sorry, n gone, just like tht. kurang ajar btul, xsempat ak nk memaki hamun dia(walaupun sbnrnye xnk wat mcm tu). abis guitar ak calar balar, xgune btul mamat tu. but, at least i got my guitar back. better then nothing.

Today my housemate organized a blood donation campaign at the campus,n i promised him tht i'll go to get some of my blood donated. this is my second time. the first time, is last year. mula2 agak tkut la ms nk derma..jarum xnk besar lak kan. but, it's not tht hurt. the fact tht u have do something good to help other people i need is the most important thing. so, for those people who need type A blood, come n get it ok! lets donate! (i heard they give some cool merchandise n food)

He is a fucker

I hate that motherfucker! brani2 dia pnjam ak nye brg tanpa izin ak.n then, tht son of a bitch buat mcm brg tu bapak dia yg punye..mmg berbulu je rsnyer hati ni..dlm imaginasi ak, mmg da mati hidup ak blik ak keje kn mamat tu..lakhanat btul..ap krang rasa, klu brg yg pling korg syg, org len pnjam tanpa izin?? pastu bl mntk pulg, bukn main liat lg..ap sialnye makhlut tuhan tu. sedangkan lebah pun marah kt amik madu dia, ni kan manusia, lgi la nek minyak..fuck tht boy!!!

klu ikutkan hati nk je ak bgi dia pkai menatang ni:
xpun, bgi dia ddk atas kerusi ni ke:
huhu...dan sbgnyer..haha..tp kejam sgt tu..mati anak dara org..kah2

huuuuhhhh......Ok, now im relieved after cursing tht boy. hurm..oh ya, i just arrived at seremban. it's been 3 weeks since my last visit..my parent is already enraged with me not coming home for a long time..its not tht i didnt want to come, but i dun have the time..i have activities n event to attend every week. last week, i got module, n the last 2 week i got sports carnival day. suppose, i have to attend a team building at Gombak ths week, but i have to pass..i luv my parent more thn my society..haha..(jgn marah shafiq^^) but, i do want the society to achieved their target this sem.. you see, my IB society, is one of the loser society in the campus..the reason i got into this matters, is to raise up the societys' name back..so student, will be proud to belong in the IB group(IB stand for International Business). i hope it can happened..it must happened!!(><)

GO IB!!

beyond expectations

Heyy..i just got back from my module..it turns out to be a lot of fun, even the activities were really retarded..the thing tht create the fun, is the one who participate in those retard activities. my group were consist of me, shafiq, mizi, iqbal, ain, nani, sara and wawa..i actually didnt really know this 4 gurl, but after ths module, i get to know them better.its pretty fun to hang out with them actually.esspecially nani, she got ths funny attitude, tht whnever i look at her, i can retardedly laugh.haha..

our group, but not all r here..from right, mizi,nani, sara, wawa, shafiq,n me~

Anyway, there are some games tht we play..it start with ice breaking sessions(typical), presentation about Malay race, set up a choir, n designing business plan.and there is one more, tht is i dunno wat its called..but its a game, where there a 5 question:

1. who will u take as a partner in a 100m dash?
2.who will u share ur secrets with?
3.who will u take to accompany u in a jungle?
4.who will u saved from drowning?
5.if u have 1 million, who will u entrusted with tht money?

thts the question, n my answer is a secret(obviously..) but it was fun, n tricky..coz u can only choose one different person only for every question..so, try to answer tht question ur self ok^^

broadband succks!

All the broadband sucks..maxis, celcom, and digi..they all sucks! i can't get online at my home. all my housemate use celcom broadband, but mine is digi.just wanna use a different one, and aspecting to have a good signal here.but, no.. tis house is cursed man..i can only online at early in the morning..i dunno why is tht happening.my house is at the highest level, so i thought it can receieve a much better signal..but somehow, it doesnt work tht way..weird....

Anyway, this is my burden to bear..i already subscribe digi, so just let it be..i luv mybroadband,coz its cute..better from the other CSL broadband..hihi..at least tht reduced the burden of not having a good signal here~

the look of my new broadband, catchy huh~

luv cycle

this last few weekend was very tiring of me..a lot of test, assignment, prblems with frens, birthday, n others. but nvm.it will end, somehow..hurm..do u ever luv sombody tht u afraid that the person's r going to go away?that u always want tht person on ur side, most of the time, but u scared to be too depending to tht person u luv. feeling scared tht u will repeat the same mistake by holding the people u luv, too firm tht it will crush them.. i did~ i know i luv this gurl..i really care 4 her..but i seem to be afraid of giving hope too much.i mean, i have in luv too many times, tht i know somethng will go wrong and end ur luv cycle. what am i gonna do..half of me want her to be with me, but the other half, just wanna play safe, just let it follow the flow of luv cycle..but what if some other guy who is more direct, steal her from me?what am i gonna do?i dun like to fight,or to argue with other people..the only things that i can do, is to let it be..just accept the fact that there are other man tht deserve u..hurm i hope, she can understand, no matter what i do, my feeling is still the same..