Last Breath

Friday, October 22, 2010

This will be my last post before this semester ended.. this semester is the most hectic one..too many things going on..Break ups, fighting, back stabbing, meet up, and many more..but i dont want to talk about that stuff. I just want to let off steam inside my heart.

After my break ups, things seems to be different. i expect that, but i don't know that it will be this hurt. I can feel that they are starting to go away from me. maybe im being too sensitive, but thats what we feel for people that we care the most. I miss I, I miss S, I miss Z, and I miss B. We used to do all sort of things together, watch movies, do some sports, study, and gossip(thats the best). Even though, some of them are rough, sedikit gile, but i dun mind, because thats the traits i love about u guys. U guys rocks my world, without u all, im nothing. Im just me, the old, sad n lonely me. But why do u all left me in the dark? u don't call anymore, text me anymore, or even invite me to have a dinner with u all.

What hurt the most happened in China. No one of u realize that im sick and alone in Summer Palace when we are in Beijing. Nobody said, "eh, mana nizam?". Instead, u all have fun and laughter without me in the picture. U all are busy taking photos and i frustratingly, just watch u all in the distance, where nobody can see me. Eating my heart up. Then, in the night when u all go to the bird nest stadium, that's even worst. im sick, and nobody stays with me to care for me, not even my beloved room mate. The thing is, if one of u is in my position, hell i wont go anywhere without u feeling healthy. I heard some of u said, "saya ni kawan masa susah". and damn, she's right. I don't know why people tend to forgot about me when they are happy, as i always have u all in my heart no matter it's glorious or sad moment..my heart were torn in pieces, shattered in misery. why do i got all this punishment?Is it because i screw up with your best buddy? am i not your good buddy anymore? i got the same amount of hurt when it happens and there's no one beside me to give me support. Please guys, forgive me for the mistake i've done and let's move on.

I hope, we can be like we used to be.. but maybe my dream was damned..Thank u I,S,Z,and B for the love and care u give me all this while. I hope i can have unlimited of them, but sometime we cant get all the things we want in this world. After this, we all we be on our own path. Wish u all the greatest joy in life, and please be someone that people will never forget, like the way i will never forget about u all. Don't be like me


Just The Way You Are

Sunday, September 19, 2010

by: Bruno Mars
Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And it's so, it's so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

(Chorus)
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think it's so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
I'd never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

(Chorus)

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

(Chorus)

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/b/bruno_mars/#share

Spiderman

Sunday, September 12, 2010


From Peter to Mary Jane:


when you look in her eyes and she's looking back in yours... everything... feels... not quite normal. Because you feel stronger and weaker at the same time. You feel excited and at the same time, terrified. The truth is... you don't know what you feel except you know what kind of man you want to be. It's as if you've reached the unreachable and you weren't ready for it."

what can we do??

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

fuhh..berderau darah ak dgr berita yg laknatullah,bodoh,n cibai israel ni attack kapal yg bawa para pengaman Gaza.mmg fuck la israel ni. dah la byk negara dia da attack. agaknye da sangap darah sangat kot, sampai ramai lagi org bersalah yang nk dibunuhnyer. ak xtau la, ap yang ak blh buat. ak nk berperang, tp polisi negara kita bukn mcm tu.lgipun ak bknnye tahan nk berlatih ala tentera ni..ap yg blh ak buat ialah berdoa. marila kt sama2 berdoa supaya saudara kita terutama org Malaysia agar diselamatkn dari cengkaman serigala bodoh dan retarded ni. Israel, u r one piece of motherfuckin dog shit!



En. Robin

Thursday, May 13, 2010


Guees what, i just watch robin hood movie today.. wow, it such a great movie, with all the action n drama. skrg ak da tau, cerita di sbalik Robin Hood ni, atau nm sbenarnye Robin Longstride. u guys should watch this movie ok, i recommend it for u. org lama berlakon ni, tp ttp mantop..haha..wow!

New thing

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Buenos nochas..como estas?? haha..hola! i just come out with something today. ak terpikir, ak ni budak IB, so ap yg membezakan ak dgn pelajar bisnes lain? we al learn management of coz, finance, account..so, what is the specialty of being an international business student? after thnking for a while, i tell my self.."hey, why dont i learn foreign languange? i know malay, english, a little bit japanese, so why dun i add up some more? it will look good in my resume". dun u thnk so? jom la ramai2 kita tmbh kan bahasa kita.ak da start dgn bahasa sepanyol.korg bila lg?? haha..

ok, lupekan hal tu.ak bru pas tgk iron man2 ari ni. wow, cita tu sgt impressive ok. wlupun ak tgk sorg, tp ak still terhibur. tu da kira outstanding la tu..haha..korg2, nnt kt pi tgk cerita En. robin hood yer..haha..ok, la ak da xtau mau kata ap. so, adios amigos!!

tamat

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Today is the last exam of the freakin final exam..gmbira gile la siot! walaupun utk sementara..ak tau, at last ak akan bosan gak..lps ni da kene balik seremban..i luv it here..the environment, the people, friends, the food.. im gonna miss it. but hey, it just for a weekend right? sabtu depan ak da balik sini da. Then new hectic life begin.

Hurm..this semester taught me a lot of thing actually, friendship in particular..all the thing about faking, hypocrite, backstabbing, sucking up frens,.. urghh. sick of it. i starting to become the old me again. alone..it easier tht way..no burden, no responsibility, no sympathy, u dun have to care about other people opinion..is it ok? hurm..maybe not.. tht how it puzzle me..friendship is complicated..its harder than the damn Geography.. but compulsory to be acknowledge..ai..payah betul.. kawan ngn binatang je la sonang..hihi..

Next sem will be more challenge thn before, so lets have fun guys..n for the problems we gonna encounter, i got one word for u. FUCK UR SELF!!